I was hoping until the last moment, and have been delaying this post in hopes that I don’t need to post this, but it’s now confirmed.
SM Entertainment, hours after endless prayers, have confirmed that tonight, on December 18th, 2017, we lost an extremely talented, very sensitive and kind-hearted angel that is SHINee’s main vocal Kim Jonghyun.
I’m still at such a state of shock that I can’t process anything else. It still seems so unreal to me. It feels like I’m having a very bad dream.
SHINee were the very first k-pop boy group that I actually stanned, even if it wasn’t from their debut era.
We never know what hides behind a happy smile our favorite idols put on their faces in front of fans, because the last thing they’d want to do is to burden their supporters.
Kim Jonghyun was always a very sensitive person, as I remember back from days I stanned SHINee (2013-2015). When he was a DJ for “Blue Night”, he read out loud every listener’s issues, and felt their pain as if it was his. And he poured everything he felt into songs he made, but, I guess, helping people relieving their pain couldn’t help him get rid of his.
It’s frightening that none of entertainment agencies managing idols consider that having regular psychological sessions could help their artists withstand hectic and stressful schedules. Jonghyun was open about his wounds, but in Asian culture, no one considers mental illnesses as something serious.
Tonight, we lost a great, talented man. Sleep well, Kim Jonghyun, you did well in this life.