It’s been a difficult year for all of us: NU’EST long-term fans, and Produce 101 stans.
Up until now lots of us regret not knowing/stanning/staying with NU’EST throughout all those years they’ve been struggling to get recognition, and as for me, even the slightest thought of how it must have been to all their old L.O.Λ.E.s, watching those 4 months of probably a nightmare alive, gives me so many chills.
It’s been a difficult, but at the same time, a blissful year. Witnessing NU’EST’s eventual rise to stardom is probably the biggest highlight of 2017, and I feel so blessed to be a part of it.
I can’t even imagine how hard it was for all old L.O.Λ.E.s to witness how more and more depressed the boys looked as time went by. To be honest, I never would’ve suggested that after such a successful debut they would have to experience such a huge slump in their career.
I regret myself for dropping them during Action era, because I clearly was just plain stupid for not realizing what kind of a treasure I was missing. Ahhh, I keep thinking that I should’ve been stanning them, or at least following their career closer just to see what music they would’ve put for us. I regret so much not knowing what a masterpiece of a discography they had all this time.
Seeing them appear on Produce 101 season 2 was painful even for me. I actually decided to watch this whole nightmare just because I was surprised when I found out that they would appear there. And I kept questioning, “Why?”
Soon after the group evaluation mission and first elimination, I decided to listen to their full discography. And that was the point when I knew that I’ve found my ultimate bias male group. After that watching every following Produce 101 episode was a huge stress for me. I didn’t even realize that I was completely emotionally drained by that survival program until it finished, and I saw the final results… And the boys, our shiniest three boys smiling at their fourth brother who was completely heartbroken by the fact that he’s standing up there on the top, all on his own.
I remember reading all possible articles on Korean sites where everyone were absolutely surprised by the fact that Jonghyun didn’t get into Wanna One. Soon after that I saw them rising to the top, and thought again, that it was definitely a blessing in disguise. I cried when they released the 2017 version of 여보세요, when I heard those sorrowful matured vocals and desperate husky rap of JR. I decided that I will do all I can to make sure they’ll shine from now on.
I went back to Twitter (or, actually, I was already there but on my bookish one) and decided to find more L.O.Λ.E.s, and I came to this very point when I found so many kind and lovely mutuals (most of them being younger than me) to enjoy every single new milestone together. I remember everyone commenting everywhere out of desperation that we need to give our boys their first win. I even managed to convince some EXO-Ls who were touched by the kind act of K-L.O.Λ.E. who switched our Nublebong to their color and supported EXO, to stream or vote for our boys. I remember us all being desperate because we wanted to give as many wins as possible, but those TV channel strikes were still the biggest obstacle. I was afraid that iGOT7s would get mad at us for winning the music shows, because I really liked both releases, and wished both could win.
But even with that, we managed to give our boys 2 meaningful wins, and it still feels like a dream for me, a new L.O.Λ.E. Then we managed to sell 200k copies of W.Here within the first week, then our boys were invited on various shows, then finally! – an awards nomination. Although we didn’t any of these nominations, I think the most meaningful awards was still given by the shittiest award show host ever – Mnet. Discovery of the Year is truly the best description to our boys’ accomplishments for this year.
I want to thank all old L.O.Λ.E. who’s been there with them since pre-debut/debut/earlier eras for staying with them, for enduring all these misfortunes, and not losing hope. I hope you stay as friendly and kind as you were, and that you can guide us on this flower path together with the boys so we all can see them shining even brighter. Thank you for being there for them when we weren’t. Let’s enjoy this walk together, hand in hand.
I want to thank these lovely boys, my brightest starts who are temporarily physically separated, but always 5 in my heart and mind, for staying so strong together, for not giving up, even when it really felt like so. I hope that this sudden amount of newfound love won’t overwhelm you but become another source of strength and comfort when you work in the future in the name of NU’EST and in the name of L.O.Λ.E. I’m so sorry for coming to you so late, kids. I love you. Let’s be happy from now on.
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